Before I begin this review, I have a confession to make: When I picked this book off the shelf on one of my rare forays to the Seattle Central Library downtown, it slipped my mind that I had already read it several years ago. Considering how many books I read (as of this writing I’ve already published four thick volumes of reviews) it’s not surprising that I might forget one now and then, although admittedly this rarely happens. It is one of several Miller biographies I have read, others being Happiest Man Alive: A Biography of Henry Miller by Mary V. Dearborn and Henry Miller: The Paris Years by Brassai. No biography I have read so far comes close to Miller’s own accounts of his adventures in his autobiographical novels, but then in these it is difficult to know what actually happened and what is hyperbole or surrealistic riffing.
A Seeker in Big Sur, in fact, is not straightforward biography; it is mainly commentary and synopses of his books and letters. It is slow going in parts as it goes on for page after page summarizing books that I have already read and reread. I persisted, though, because I found the story of Miller’s sojourn at Big Sur fascinating, especially his dysfunctional relationships and his decades-long battle with the American censors, which prevented the publication of his most important works: Tropic of Cancer and Tropic of Capricorn. He eventually prevailed, with the assistance of a multitude of powerful admirers of his work, but fame and fortune only confused and discombobulated him. He was happier by far as a mendicant in Paris back in the 1930s than he was in the sixties when he became a literary icon.
Miller’s is another example of writers who have created great books, but their personal lives, in contrast, are confused and unfocused. As Hoyle points out, Miller had several wives at various times, who would function as muses and provide some stability in his otherwise chaotic life, but after he would finish a stretch of important work, he would abandon them and move on to something and someone else. He was also terrible at practical matters such as money management, which reminded me of the pecuniary shortcomings of another writer who was also one of my profound influences, Jack London. This emphasized, or perhaps I should say re-emphasized, the often jarring difference between artists and their work. Artistic inspiration exists apart from everyday well-being and comfort. Often deep dark experiences bring forth the greatest masterpieces. You would think that Miller’s artistic exuberance as displayed in his best work would have carried on in his personal life, but instead, as time went on his life got increasingly confusing and stressful.
In his books, Miller makes himself an invulnerable, larger than life character, but this vision does not translate to reality. He was in truth very insecure and self-centered. There is much to admire in his artistry but much to criticize in his day to day life – as is true with many of us. Still, his story is of a man determined to go his own way and break new ground in literature, and in this he succeeded. His works, once let loose on the world, inspired many other fledgling writers to remain dissatisfied with imitation and instead seek their own voices. And that includes yours truly.
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As a postscript, I would like to mention that pondering Henry Miller’s life while reading this book caused me to meditate on the differences in the way I approached reading when I was young with the way I read now. Back in the early 1970s, after I had realized that I was first and foremost a writer, I attacked new books with the passion of a starving predator. As Irving Stone relates of the struggling author in Jack London: Sailor on Horseback (one of my significant early reading experiences): “Jack London about to tackle a new volume upon which he had stumbled in a wilderness trail was like an abysmal brute, a starving wolf poised to spring. He sank his teeth into the throat of the book, shook it fiercely until it was subdued, then lapped up its blood, devoured its flesh, and crunched its bones until every fiber and muscle of that book was part of him, feeding him its strength.” Often I didn’t even know what I was looking for as I groped my way through the literary wilderness, but first subconsciously and then more and more with purpose, I devoured books I came across that, whether fiction or nonfiction, rang with truths that I needed to hear to light my own unique literary pathway. So it was with Walden by Henry David Thoreau, the individualist and free thinker; so it was with On the Road by Jack Kerouac, the ode to the open highway that leads to unknown destiny; and so it was with Tropic of Cancer by Henry Miller, which exploded upon my consciousness like no other book ever had. At that stage of my life I was not interested in the authors themselves and their imperfections and foibles – except for the decisions they made and the adventures they had that directly contributed to the outflow of their art. Each of these writers – London, Thoreau, Kerouac, Miller – plunged into life and lived it robustly, and then used their experiences to fuel the flames of their artistic passions, displaying life with all its fervor, pleasures, pains, beauty, ugliness, raunchiness, honesty, deceit, violence, love, hatred – in short, whatever raw emotional truth they encountered on their various odysseys. I was desperately hungry too, when I set out on my decades-long road journey, to discover these truths for myself so that I could convert them into art through my writing. The books I read during this time were part of the process.
Now, having lived life for over seventy years and having written almost forty books, over one hundred fifty short stories, and countless essays and book reviews, I approach my reading with a more nuanced perspective. I am no longer a hungry young wolf in the wilderness. I am still hungry, but my hunger manifests in different ways. Not long ago, I reread Tropic of Cancer for the fourth or fifth time, but it did not strike me as viscerally as it had before. As I wrote in my review: “To be honest, I found it somewhat disappointing, but in all fairness, Miller’s words have not changed, I have.” When I was young, I virtually idolized the authors who helped shape my own literary vision, but as I grew more accomplished and mature as a writer, I realized that though the works for which they are known are splendid, the writers themselves have feet of clay. And even the works, when viewed from various stages of life, evolve in significance. They will never lose their importance as milestones, but I will also never be able to approach them again from the same standpoint as when I was young, lean, and ravenous for inspiration.




































